I'm sitting on my porch on this beautiful, crisp, pre-fall morning, and I'm thinking about how significantly my life has changed. Just 2 years ago I thought my whole world was going to end when my ex left our relationship. I was completely devastated. My heart had been ripped out and stomped on; I wanted to die. I couldn't picture my life without her in it. We had made plans and I looked forward to growing old together. But life does go on. Things do get better and hearts do mend.
My life has definately changed. I'm going to school; something I had talked about doing for years, but never actually thought I'd do. I'm bettering myself and I am optomistic about my future. Although I don't have a special someone in my life, I do have my family and I couldn't ask for much more than that. I am finally at peace with myself and I look forward to things to come. Some days I still find myself thinking about her, but I guess it's easier to let go of those thoughts. I just wanted to share a sappy confession of me on this beautiful Sunday morning.
aahhh....don't you just LOVE this time of the year? I can feel the "autumn change" beginning here in Philly, too! I'm such a fall and winter guy, so I really relish these next 6 months.
ReplyDeleteI can so relate when you talk of your relationship ending and feeling devastated. And it's ironic that you said that you were looking forward to growing old together, because that's exactly how I felt with my partner. We were together fives years and after it ended, I felt like there was a HUGE space missing (like a puzzle piece) in the center of my being.
It's just as you said...things do get better and hearts do mend. So glad to hear your optimistic and feeling better.
Thank you for sharing.
And brava to school!
Glad you had a great weekend.