This is how I feel...

This is what I feel like.

Thank God I only have 2 more weeks left to go on my externship! It is seriously taking a toll on my physical and mental well-being. I am so ready just to be done with it.

It doesn't help that this weekend was like a clusterfuck, chaotic mess at the restaurant! Holy shit, I ran my ass off and I am beat. It wasn't a good kinda busy. I hate when it's like this. Don't get me wrong I'd rather be busy and make money than stand around looking pretty, but when it's crazy insane like it has been, I'm not doing my job. I am not giving good service to people, I am literally throwing food at them and walking away. They're lucky if I make it back in time to refill their drinks. I don't like waiting on people like that. As much as I hate waitressing, I am good at it and I take pride in doing it well.

Of course at the end of the night when I count my money it's all worth it, but I can't get rid of the sinking feeling that customers went away unsatisfied. I don't like that.

But on the bright side...I'm waiting to hear from the insurance company that I interviewed with. Everything seems to be going well. The last step was filling out the online application. Now I play the waiting game. I hate waiting. It's driving me crazy not knowing if they're gonna hire me or not. I just want to know. I hope they offer me a position. If they do, my waitressing days are OVER!

Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me my wonderful "tiny heads", this girl needs all the help she can get!

Hope everyone is enjoying life. No more snow over here in PA, thats a good thing. In fact I think it's going up into the high 40's this week! I cant' wait.

Well I am pooped and I need to crawl my ass into bed and get some sleep!

I've been a busy little bee! I had a phone interview with an insurance company on Friday. I don't understand the whole phone interviewing thing. I mean I guess that's how they start to weed people out, but it just seems so impersonal to me. And what is up with the Human Resources questions? Who the hell comes up with these stupid questions and what on earth do they have to do with getting a job? I learned in school that they ask you these questions to try and catch you off gaurd and they're basically looking to see how you react.

I thought that I did really bad. I was unsure about how to answer her questions. The only answers that I could come up with involved my experience in the restaurant business, bc that's all the experience I've ever had. She told me that she appreciated my time and that she'd be handing her notes over to her boss, and they'd get in touch with me in a few days if I was being moved on to the next step. After I hung up I kinda shrugged my shoulders and figured I'd never hear from "Katie" again. I chalked it up to experience and laughed about it with the girls at the office. I went on with my day.

To my utter surprise, when I got home from work that night there was actually a message from Katie on my machine. She said that she reviewed her notes with her boss and she'd like for me to come in for a face-to-face interview. Holy freaking shit! I swear I did a little happy dance right there in my living room. My poor cat probably thought I was having a seizure!

Things are starting to really move forward. I also have another interview scheduled this week with a billing company. I can't believe that this could actually happen for me. I am so excited but scared at the same time. I guess it's a healthy fear. I definately am not gonna let it freeze me, there's just no way that I will allow myself to chicken out. I refuse to wait on tables for the rest of my life!

So fellow bloggers, I'd like to thank you all for your wonderful comments and support. It makes me feel good knowing there are people out there who are rooting for me! It seems kinda weird that I've never even met you, but somehow I "know" each and every one of you! I hope all is going well for you too!

I'm probably gonna be a bad poster for the next 6 weeks or so, but I promise to keep you guys up-to-date with any disgruntled customers I happen to come across. I always have time to write about the assholes I deal with on a day to day basis! Till then enjoy yourselves!

lotsalove,
burnie