Saturday, April 24, 2010

Vanity?


Ok so I really don't consider myself to be a vain person. With that said let me tell you my recent revelation. I started my new job about 3 weeks ago, and while everybody who works there is very nice, smart, and competent, most of them are huge people. I really am not trying to judge or make fun, just stating facts here. Even most of my training class is full of overweight people. This is my biggest fear; being fat.


I've always been on the smaller side. I've never been overweight, but then again I've always held a job where I run my ass off. I am now sitting at a computer for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. The most exercise I get is walking outside to the smoking patio! I am so afraid that if I dont start really watching what I'm shoving into my pie hole, my ass is gonna widen and my belly will start to fall out of my pants.


I noticed the first 2 weeks that I was bringing all kinds of little snacks with me to eat at my desk: twizzlers, m&m's, pretzels, etc. I'm not even hungry, I'm just eating because I can. At most of the restaurants I've worked at we weren't allowed to eat during a shift. Of course this isn't to say I didn't snatch a few fries off of customer plates but really I was too busy to even think about eating. I no longer have this rule. I can eat all day at my desk if I wanted to, I could even eat my lunch there if I so chose to.


So what's a girl to do? I have vowed to stop bringing in the snacks and force myself to take a walk everyday to try and burn this excess energy I have stored up. I can't believe I'm gonna say this but I miss the running and constant motion of my waitressing days! I know.