Friday, November 20, 2009

Fear

It's only 7 am and already I've been hit with a bomb. When my phone rang at this early morning hour I immediately went into panic mode; who the hell is calling me this early? It was my father.

He said to me that he has something very important he needs to discuss with me, um ok daddy what's going on? The jist is this:

The company that my father has worked for for the last 34 years held a meeting this past week and told him and the other employees that they will be moving but they're not sure when and they will hope to be able to tell the employees by January. I am speechless.

My dad doesn't know whether or not he will have a job.

I am floored and tears are welling up in my eyes. You know what my wonderful rock of a father tells me:

"I will make it through this".

What?

The strength that eminates from my father is unfreaking believable. He is such a quiet and serene man. "Such is life" he tells me. He is the rock that holds my family together. I use to think it was my mother, who by the way is freaking out (and rightfully so) but no it is my dad, definately. He has this kind of courage that you just don't see anymore. I love that man to pieces.

As we were hanging up he tells me that he is gonna get all his ducks in a row and whatever happens, happens. He is not bitter, he's not freaking out, kicking or screaming, crying, No he's getting their finances straight and looking at options and talking about a future. He is my hero today and I only wish to have half of his strength.

I love my parents and I am scared for them. I know this is happening to Americans all over the country, but that doesn't offer any comfort. What is happening to our country? People who work hard all thier lives and do the right thing are getting shit on and I for one am sick of it.

I am by no means a religious person, so I'll ask you folks if you could, would you send some positive thoughts my family's way?

8 comments:

  1. Consider positive thoughts sent. :) Sorry you and your family is being hit by these hard times. It is so true that the people that work the hardest are being hit the hardest. :( My family and I are going through that right now. I've been unable to find work and my hubby's disability isn't enough. Keep your chin up, dad sounds like a smart guy!!

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  2. Kristi,
    Thank you for your positive thoughts and I am sending some your way as well. Good luck with your family situation too! We must come together as a country and fix this situation. I thank you for your comments.

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  3. I'm sending love and positivity into the universe for you and your family. Times are tough right now. I know a lot of people who either are or were recently out of work. My boyfriend of six+ years lost his job last year, but he was able to find his way into a new career eventually. It was really hard on us for a while, but we pulled through. Hopefully your dad will get to keep his job, but even if not, things will work out--they have to.

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  4. I'll definitely be praying for your family. I'm sorry about your dad, hopefully things will be ok though. -hugs-

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  5. M.J.
    Thanks for sending me some love and positivity, I especially needed it after talking with my mother about what's going on. She is fearful and bitter and she's freaking out. We don't know for sure yet what's gonna happen but she's already telling me that she won't be able to buy any presents next year and shit like that. She is totally freaked and I don't know how to comfort her!

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  6. Gavin,
    Thank you for keeping my family in your prayers. I don't know how but IT WILL WORK OUT, it just has to! I am scared for them and I wish there was something that I could do.

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  7. That's an awful situation for your dad to be in and especially not to know what might be coming- he's very brave, and you're understandably scared and angry for him, but stay aclm and focus on the positives- on health and happiness and family support. Its tough but fingers crossed things are lifting, and whilst that is faint support for now, I truly hope it means you and your family will be ain a better position. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  8. Love writing again,
    Thanks for your kind words of support for my family. I really do hope that things can get better for everyone, not just my parents.

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