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Well...where to begin?
There's a shit load of crap going on in my head right now but I just can't seem to focus on one or the other enough to get it into words. Lots of feelings goin on: loneliness, pride, happy, sad, frustrated. This annoying little blinking cursor is antagonizing me; it wants me to write something, feel something, say something...but what do I say? What do I allow myself to feel? What do I allow myself to put up on the shelf and deal with later? Will any of it make a difference? How bad to I make myself feel about things that are just not in my control before I say fuck it and move on?

So I've been thinking about maybe putting a personal ad in one of those city paper things. I know, how pathetic is that? I never thought it would come down to this. I just don't know how I'm going to meet someone when I don't go anywhere. I tried the free on-line dating sites and nothing really panned out. I guess I could try one of those ones they advertize on t.v. but money is tight and I don't know if I can justify paying for that in my head. No. I can't. So what's a girl to do? I am sick of coming home to no one. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy being single sometimes. It's nice to not have to do things when really all you want to do is put on comfy sweats and sit down with a good book. But you know, it really is getting pretty boring and mundane around here. I just want someone to have a good time with and talk with and well of course.....

Anyone have any opinions out there? Where or how did you meet the person you're with? Suggestions would be welcomed.

This burnedoutwaitress is in desperate need of some help!